10 days over, 5 more to go.

It's 22nd of December. Happy birthday bro if you ever realized I'm writing this.

5 more days before I leave Taiping for the city again. It's time to actually hate the idea of leaving this cosy home (although not sometimes).

I don't know what to record in this entries actually, then i thought maybe I could write down(or type down) what have I been doing for the past. urm. 10 days in taiping?

1. Was helping out my mom with her work for a couple of days. say TWO days.

So, 8 days left.

2. went up to Penang for a day, an attempt to watch meteor shower. But no avail. Sigh. ended up bugging the guys for the whole day through. Well, look at the bright side, at least you're not bored, probably just annoyed of me asking you guys random questions, kan?

7 days left.

3. Spent 2 days baking, one was moist chocolate cake with chocolate chip and chocolate frosting. Heh, that was the day I got my result, although it wasn't as bad as I expected, but it's not good. So a girl got to do what she needed to cheer herself up righhttt?

Oh and another day baking marble cake, it's actually butter cake with and extra layer of choco flavour in between. This was traditionally baked on Chinese New Year, but since I was in the mood of baking and my aunties actually asked for it, what the heck. It's kinda weird though, it used to be my mom's job to bake this, but don't know ever since when that she pass down this recipe to me, and ever since then I've got to do it. For my aunt, another aunt, cousin, uncle and the other aunt every chinese new year. Damn, my mom is smart.

Oh, 5 days left.

4. I spent one night watching football match in Charis's house with the other two dudes. Haven't seen them in ages. so yea. and I just spent one afternoon with the rest of the girls, first to check out the new coffee chain, ended up with sucky iced chocolate but it was fun to laugh at the typo on the menu though, "ice belended and muchroom." then followed up by ice kacang and laksa trip to pokok assam. ;) That sum up for a day.

4 days left.

5. ....
I couldn't think of anything else. The other 4 days, bumming around. Did some work, watch TV, jog 3 times around the field in front of my house. and bumming around. Ah, that's the whole point of holidays right? I lost count. =P

5 more days in taiping, 5 more only. I need a nap now. bummer. =)

The lady in Red.

Last few months, when I was back home during study week, I met this lady, it was a brief encounter, so I didn't really asked for her name, or maybe I just don't remember.

I followed my dad to meet a this lady who wanted to refurbish her sofas.

I remembered during that brief conversation, we know that she likes red. and also she named one of her dog, chindae( which is suppose to mean love in punjab if I'm not wrong) and she referred her dogs to her sons. Those two dogs are the cutest one ever, with fluffy hair and they just smells so clean. And I was busy playing with them, that is why I didn't even ask for her name.

But this lady was jovial. She was smiling all the while. We also found out that she teaches in Erican language and also conduct cooking classes in her very own home.

But she has this make ups on her, red eyebrow pencil, and red lipstick and red top that makes her happy. As long as she's happy and comfortable with herself, so I've thought.

And today I was thinking about that. Memories was quite messy, that explain the way I wrote. Pieces of information here and there.

But today I was also thinking about her because she was reported dead. The chinese paper says that she committed suicide, cut both her wrists.

Then there were more rumors, saying that there's a robbery. She died on her way to the hospital. But no one knows exactly why.

But she looks too happy and content to commit suicide.

Today I wrote about her because she was nice to me. Very nice indeed for the first time that I met her which I didn't expect it would be the last.

Living.

Last week was quite an intense week. I was having a seminar back in UM one whole week (plus the pre-camp) which eventually got me sick now. Over-used of energy. I need to recuperate.

Thought about blogging about it, but i figured i might just be boring. And besides it's too much to tell.

And that might just be my last AIESEC conference. At least I'm sure it's the last one as a delegate. This got me thinking of people who had been in my life.

There are some came by for a period of time, a passerby i call them. Left a footprint and go on with their life. Whether it is a positive or a negative thing. They are often around for a reason. Although sometimes it may seems oblivious at the moment. Normally these are the majority in everyone's life.

Some of those linger around a lil' more. Leaving you clueless whether they're still in the picture or not. They are here every now and then but you don't know what they want from you and what are they willing to give. I called this undefined.

Then there are some who took an extra mile just to be part of your life. These are the people who made an effort just to see the smile on your face. And I'm glad I have quite a number of those in my life.

And then there is this group of people that you know they're going to be there no matter what. These are the one that you know you won't lose even though you don't call them often enough, or hang out with them often enough. These are the people that you know for a long long time, or at least you feel that way.

Then there is this group of people who has the ability to inspire other, maybe long term, or short term. They're just there to give you more reasons to live your life. This people are the rare type. These people appear, whether it's just a conversation encounter or a close friend or coach.

Last but not least there is a group that you're born with. Ready to receive you into their life with joy. How your life turned out to be mostly depends on this group of people and of course yourself. These are the group of people you need to learn how to live with.

Having all these people in my life is such a wonderful experience and feeling, but yet, i don't want this to be the peak of my life. Cause it's just not enough.

Sunday morning. *=)

This is why I love Sunday, I get to wake up at noon and actually do nothing for like 2-3 hours. (forget about cleaning up my messy room and do laundry for a moment)



Anyway, it had been quite a week. First, last Friday I went for a youth forum, part of the event for the first national AIDS conference.



Of course, events like this will start with a few speeches, first by a representative from UNICEF itself, then from the health ministry, deputy-general or something who managed to gave us some facts and statistic apart from his often mispronunciation.



Then it follows with an interactive talk show: "Living in the age of HIV/AIDS. Are young people in Malaysia responding?" moderated by Rina Omar and Xandria Ooi. I think i rather not comment on the moderator, else they might sue me.



Well, in my opinion, it was interesting to hear from different perspective, namely a NGO from kelantan area and the way they approach the high-risk group. They mention that "pelajar bermasalah" (although i personally wont refer them that way because our education system it's so exam oriented and it doesn't mean all those who doesn't follow along with the system is problematic) needed more intense counselling such as "mental torture", sort of brainwash i think. At a moment I was wondering what was that, and then I thought about the session they used to do for us before exam in library? Can anyone recall? They sort of play soft music, asked us to close eyes and imagine don't know what, and then everyone started crying one? Okay, maybe that sounds like reflection.


And of course some was against the idea. There are a couple of young people, from YAC and Brats that are really extroverts that didn't fail to voice out. I would say it was fruitful but there are no certain direction for this kinda thing, so sometimes it turn out pretty messy. Everyone was with their own opinions and maybe it was good to warm up before breaking up into discussion group.



I met quite a few interesting people, one being the executive director of Malaysia AIDS Council. He was sharing his experience in the field and his passion for this issue, enlightening us with some of the current realities and upcoming projects. Oh, they're coming up with this exhibition where they would want to let other people experience the feeling of being people living with HIV/AIDS(PLWHA), concept of a maze to let public walk through, and along the journey with certain kind of sounds and visual effects which actually sounds really cool.



Hah, but the funny thing is that when we were chatting, and he was telling us what not to do, then he suddenly mention " you girls should not go for tattoo" and then he repeated a couple of times, what can i do right? I just smiled la and maybe I should go to Pink Triangle one of these days to get tested. Who's with me? =)





And also during the talk show, this lady, Suhaiza shared her story on how she got tested HIV+ and how she is living her life now. It was really brave of her, but i didn't really get a chance to talk to her personally.


and oh, there's this other girl, Cheryl from World Vision. I had a little chat with her earlier and then later she joined the same discussion group, so i had a longer talk. I've got to know she just joined World Vision like 6 months ago, quitting her job in a more corporate world, she said although her pay was good and all that, there wasn't a satisfaction and she's happier with her job now. it's inspiring listening to stories like these. and she's really pretty too.





and some other AIESECers.

with Alish and Michele.

I guess enough about that, anyway yesterday night, attended 50 most gorgeous party in Zouk with Hoon, kinda last minutes decided cause we both had nothing to do on a Saturday night, thought meeting up would be good. =)



Nothing much to highlight actually but it was fun to meet and get to know some other girls.

oh, and Ummu, second from right won herself a 1.2k worth of price from Celebrity fitness. Hrmp. i want also. Nevertheless i felt happy for her.

I've got to go rest more, got a crazy week ahead. =)

That 28th of November

OMG! 3 more days till the Baskin Robbins promotion for the CHOCOHOLICS ends and i haven't got one of the chocolate trilogy yet. I can't believe myself even. Must go tomorrow, must go tomorrow.

Back to the topic, today can be one of my weirdest day in the month, or maybe in half a year or so, whatever la, today is a weird day.

Why?
Me and my other two teammates met up with this Dato' that wanted to look for people to manage his newly acquired company that sells Pitaberry, a health drink innovation from Pitaya fruit( the picture look like dragon fruit)(http://www.pitaberry.com/)

So we went there for an intention to actually get sponsorship for the conference happening next week.

He started off fine, telling us about the new branding that he wants to do for Pitaberry and so on. Then of course we try to push on the sponsorship, then he started telling us his life story, started off poor, selling supper when he was studying in TARC, then finish and moved to Sabah, so on.

Casual conversation took on for more than half an hour asking us where are we from and try to relate to each of each..

Then we tried talking again about the sponsorship. lol. at the moment, i thought that would never end. However, he agreed to our offer plus 30cartons of drinks(he insist of 30 even though my friend say 20 is sufficient) but confirmation letter need to be submitted and so on. But that's not the end.

We were invited to have tea with him in Winter Warmers, quite a nice place. We went there first, waited for him. After about 30 mins, he came with a couple of friends, A lady, Judy, Recruiter for oil and gas industries, a divorcee, David, in oil and gas industry in S'pore(has a strong patriotism towards his own country and keep asking us to work in S'pore instead), and Bernard, the quiet printing guy.

I personally feel Judy has her own substance through conversation, and i thought that was the only meaningful conversation I had in that whole 3 hours other than trying to get sponsorship.

Anyway through the tea, let me highlight a few stuff that still cracks me up when I think about it, the Dato' mention he bought 11 advertisement billboards around KL and PJ, multimedia, 18 hours a day, every 20 seconds to promote Pitaberry numerous time, specifically 18 hours, every 20 seconds! lol.

Then he came up with the idea of putting the pictures of OUR faces, then cut and paste only the eye part( he did funny movement with his hand, and i was sitting beside and can't laugh) all over billboard and let people guess who are we and win plasma TV! lol.

hah. there's so much more that i couldn't even remember. he talk so much that sometimes i got drifted off, and I'll just nod. and say "yea, yes, that's a good idea".

Anyway hopefully he's for real and won't bail out. After all he's going to "make NLDS happen!".

Ah, tomorrow is going to pack, and Friday will be attending a youth forum( part of the agenda for UNICEF first national AIDS conference).

Maybe will blog after that on what happen.

Goodnight. =)

The "cheerful" post

i don't know why all my posts ended up sounding so emo one.
Not that i want to. Just that i don't know how to appear "cheerful" through words i guess.
Now lagi teruk, the background in black. :P

Anyway look what I've found?








it's kinda blur. the red arrow pointing towards word says "nose sharpener"


if that's what they do to achieve sharper nose, wonder what they do to get bigger eyes, i could imagine them putting toothpicks to expand the eye larger. ( you know like those in cartoon one. ) =)






http://www.choco-mylove.blogspot.com/



and then i found this website, selling ever thing chocolate. lol.


made me wanna try making some myself. maybe i should during my two weeks break later in December. ;)





and oh, i just found out you guys went all the way to KLCC to buy me these..



i love it so much, i even took picture of it. haha. now i shall name everyone of it, starting with the top left one... kidding.

anyway thanks, really. =)

It's my fourth day after getting the tattoo.. all i can say is itchy, itchy, itchy, itchy!
Lol, really la. have to continue feeding on junk food to forget about the itchiness, some more tak jadi wanna go jogging, and i need a new running shoe as well, the current one is not proper running shoes, and after I run 8-10 rounds around the field in front of my house right, my feet hurts like hell. wait wait.. Year end sales coming. and i shall wait! till then sit at home, eat my way to being overweight and try not to scratch.

It's time for meeting again.

till then. =)

The border.

Say if God ( if there's ever one, whether it's Allah, Jesus, or what-so-ever name that you might wanna give "______"?) created man and woman. Two perfectly different creatures but still have distinct similarity where we can categorized them as human race.

Traditionally, man went out to hunt for food, men are stronger, have more strength, kill the enemy, built the shelter and protect the family.

Woman on the other hand, stay home, cook, clean and decorate the house, take care of things as woman are more sensitive and delicate towards details.

These roles and responsibilities are easily defined( or at least i thought so.)

But as time passed, the roles changes and now to a period that we can't and uncertain about how to define the roles of woman and man in society.

Therefore it often raise the issue of the existences of gender equalities. How can we distinguish the border? The fine line that separate the tradition and the future.

Of course, we have argument from both side, women not given enough opportunities, being judge over their responsibilities at work and at home (maternity and time to take care of their kids and all that).

As for positive side, they said there are uprising woman in the society that holds higher position, CEO, and minister, even prime minister now.

But reality check, scale down to Malaysia alone, how many successful woman can you name in 5 mins? ................ i bet you just include your mom in the list. which would be perfectly normal, as they're that influential.

Like what have shown in Devil wears Prada( yes, it's a chic-flick), if Miranda was a guy, nobody would have said anything.

Okay, let's say we scale it down more, to Tertiary education level, student council. You can just have a look at the number and percentage of woman in the public universities student council. Then to a more drastic comparison, just look at the President of the Council only.

By ratio, there are definitely more woman than man in the universities, or can we say the woman are more passive, or they're just not into this? If that's the only argument.






sigh. pardon my frustration.
I'm just sick of people telling me what I can do and what I can't.
Now I'm unsure whether i'm striving to be myself, or just striving to be Different.

"I"m 21!"

oh, that's what my cake says. heh.

the last two posts in friendster blog was due to the boredom of exams. but i figured maybe i should just continue. See how long will it last this time eh?

anyway, i had a great birthday, i thought i grow up too fast for clubs and so, thus, i decided to stay home. with friends and family. Thanks for the wishes and the pressie. I've got the cutest present ever that remind me i don't exactly need to grow up even though i'm already legal to vote. chocolates, elmo t-shirt and chocolate. and look!

Ice cream cone bubblesss comes in CHOCOLATE flavour!

It smellsss so good, everyone should get one. lol.

my mom say i act like lil kid. hrmp.

And of course i've got myself a lil present as well, urm, but my brothers paid for it la.

got myself an appointment with Borneo ink in Hartamas a couple of week ago, and this was done two days ago. woo hoo. i love it, the tattoo artist, Lina done a great job and it only too an hour plus.

And like what i mention before, i don't have much pain receptors. but i was ticklish, she said i moved like worm. lol. but i still love the end result after so long contemplating to get one.

I think it's starting to peel off now, I have to sleep "terbalik" and had a hard time applying ointment, cause i can't exactly look at it without a mirror. hehe.

But there's one tiny thing in my plan tak jadi, wanted to go for AJ Hackett ride in KL Tower still.. hrm. maybe later.

I'm on holiday, looking for a part time job but at the same time so many things coming up, and that just reminded me, got to bank into Vanessa's account by today for MNC.

Anyway I've got to go out now.

That's all for now.