a little by lil

The day I stood still, watching the time passes by,

wandering away, brought my memories,

a little by lil, back into my thoughts

The day I broke down, with shots of chemicals,

bringing me out, from within myself,

a little by lil, into the world of yours

The day I watched you, and the sorrow in your eyes,

heart pounding still, touching you, feeling you,

a little by lil, I try to understand why

The day I made my mark, taking a different path,

pushing through the memories, that had kept me apart,

a little by lil, I took the step one

The day I heard from you, what had been told is just the truth,

I took some time and stepped backward, waiting for you to lead,

a little by lil, to the light that is shining through

The day I feel my heart, that I had doubt a thousand years,

as if I've found myself, bleeding through it all,

a little by lil, trust falls in the right path


Memories remain unkept, as there will be so much more,

the day will come and I would not let go,

and here I sat in silence, with solace from a turning fan,

as what I need is not maturity, but only a boy who would grow up with me,

a little by lil, we will learn why